I have been trying to be consistent with the devotions but unfortunately these past few weeks have been challenging to say the least.
I have never been so close to giving up in this fight than I have in these past few weeks. This constant reminder of my limitations is not the easiest thing to handle. I want to do more! But in fact, I am only able to get three (3) hours of non-laying down time in an entire day. On minimal pain day I can do more.
Of course there is much that I accomplish laying down because thankfully my brain’s capacity is the best that it has ever been. Notwithstanding this and other blessings, I still ache to be able to conquer life outside of those physical challenges. Yes, I am talking about #lifewithherniateddiscs.
My head keeps going out of place, literally.
This looks like an ordinary picture, but the hidden truth is that my head is literally out of place, it is crooked, out of alignment. When this happens it makes my outlook very dim and I become short sighted. Every now and then I get to this “I’m FedUp” point; where I’m looking on with a crooked head, which causes my eyes to present me with a tilted, abnormal, distorted view of what is, and what is ahead.
One of the things that the Lord has been doing with me as He takes me through this process is teaching me spiritual lessons through my pain and discomfort, much like He did with the Prophets. Disclaimer: I’m not saying that He is making me sick, I am saying that He is working it out for my good. Romans 8:28.
Reality is that we see things the way we do not because of our pressing circumstances as many believe, but all because of a crooked head. What we see is not a result of outward circumstances. Rather, it is the product of internal happenings. Our head must be aligned to the word of God. It is only then that we will be able to see things, through God’s eyes, seeing them as they truly are. If this thing that houses our vision is misaligned, our vision will follow suit and this makes a good recipe for “FedUp mentalities”.
As I walk this thing out, what has been pressing is that the word of God has to become not only what I confess, but the thing that aligns my head.
So here goes the question: What Do You See? #Selah
Father, many times I am overwhelmed because of my sight. I see things that are out of proportion, things that are untrue because of the state of my head. This day I pray that the blood of Jesus purge my mind; I pray that the gates of my mind be lifted so that the King of Glory comes in; I pray that this same mind is in me that was also in Christ Jesus. Help me Lord to make the conscious decision to align my mind and thinking with Your word, so that I will always see what You see. I pray in Jesus’ name, AMEN!
By Joanna Lloyd